If you saw me a year ago, you wouldn’t think it was me. Maybe it’s because I always had a smile on my face, and a bounce in my step, or maybe it’s because I still had my sister.
About 3 months ago, I got the news that my sister had been in a car accident. Just like me she was very smart, had high goals in life, and understood what it felt like to be alone. Libby was the woman I looked up to, even if my mom was there. She knew what I was going through with the drama, and boys, and just what it was like to be on the outside. Unlike my mom. Libby was 21, and one of the best people you would ever meet.
Hearing that news almost made me go deranged. I was constantly grieving and mourning over the loss of her, just because she wasn’t there for me anymore. I no longer had my older sister. Even though this happened only a while ago, it’s starting to feel like more of a distant dream in this nefarious and deceit world.
Almost every day now, I feel so lamentable, and denuded of energy. Like a part of me was missing, like I was falling apart piece by piece. Somehow I feel as if I started to get more manipulative, I can trick people easily into thinking I’m happy, or somehow doing things for me. I just hope that my sister will use that annex and spread her wings, up in heaven. I know she will be watching me, and if possibly she can send me a wish, I will someday get a majestic man in my life.