Finding your soul mate is never easy. Maybe he’s the one you have most common with, or maybe he’s the cute next door neighbor you always thought was such a nerd. Either way sooner or later you will end up meeting him.
Waking up for school has always been a hard problem for me. I just don’t seem to have as much “Chemistry” in school, than I do at the mall. But yet every morning I wake up, just for the ride to school.
My eyes fluttered open as my radio alarm clock played “Waking up to love”. How Ironic is that? Walking down the stairs I heard voices by the door. Ryan was in the doorway facing my parents. I guess I’m more of a heavy sleeper than I thought.
“Oh my gosh! Ryan I’ll be quick, I promise!” I was very surprised, at how late I slept in. What I wasn’t surprised at, was the fact Ryan didn’t care that I looked like such a mess when I ran back upstairs. I browsed through my freakishly messy closet, found my favourite pair of black skin tight jeans, and threw on a soccer jersey, I bought at the Seasonal game. Looking through my make-up I found my black, sparkly, liquid eyeliner and applied it quickly but efficiently, applied some gloss then headed back downstairs. Ryan was still waiting at the door, as I grabbed some coco puffs, put them in a plastic baggy, ran to the front door closet and put on my Green converse shoes. Finally when I was done, Ryan took my hand and led me to his shiny Blue sports car.
“I’m so sorry I overslept…” I started rambling on, but Ryan interrupted me.
“Don’t worry about it Mia. Oh and by the way, even if you did it quickly…I think you look beautiful.”
I was surprised at his compliment. We weren’t together, but we have always been best friends. “Oh… well thanks Ryan” I smiled the rest of the way to school. Even the smallest of compliment had made my day.
The rest of the school day, I found myself daydreaming at things I never had before. I started writing hearts in my notebooks, and the letter R inside the hearts. That’s when I realized all these years I was dating guys I never cared about, while I hurt the one I actually loved. I could only imagine how agonizing it was to watch me with other guys, but always “Just the friend”. Well all that is going to change after school when I find Ryan by my locker.
“Hey Mia! How was your day today?” Ryan had a gleam in his bright baby-blue eyes.
“Wonderful Ryan…I have something I want to talk to you about on the car ride back to my house.” I couldn’t help but blush a bit.
“Okay sure, anything. Hahaha and why are you blushing?” His amazing smile, complimented his dark brown hair. His hair is short, but covers part of his eye. He is fairly tall, about 6”4, and I have always thought of him as “Just a friend”. Now I think different.
“Oh no reason, let’s just head to the car” I smiled a playful smile, took his hand, and led him towards his car.
Most of the car ride was silent. I couldn’t bring up the courage to tell him how I feel. Finally Ryan broke the silence, as he took a big intake of air and said “So, what is it you wanted to talk to me about?”
“Oh yeah…that. I don’t really know how to say this…” What was I supposed to say?! Should I come right out and say it? Or take the weenie route, lie, and tell him about something else.
“Yes….?” Ryan urged, looking at me cautiously.
“Okay truth is, I think I maybe, sort of, possibly love you.” *phew* It’s over. Weight lifted off my chest, but how would he react?
Ryan looked at me skeptically then asked cautiously “Are you lying to me? Did you have to do this for a dare? Or is this some twisted way of telling me to back off?” As Ryan rambled on other reasons for why I said it, I held his hand on the steering wheel, looked him in the eyes for only a moment, then whispered “Ryan, I honestly love you. May have taken me this long, but it is pure“. I’m sure Ryan was waiting for me to laugh and say “Happy April Fools” But I didn’t. I felt the way I did, and if he didn’t feel the same, oh well. A Long silence went by till I finally spoke.
“If you don’t feel the same way, don’t worry about it.” I tried to sound as if I didn’t care how he felt, but anyone could see through my voice.
“Mia, I’ve felt the same way about you since the 2nd grade. I’ve watched others ask you out, and then hurt you. I sat on my bed wondering how many tears you cried, and debated with myself many times if I should beat those guys up. It’s you who I’ve cared about ever since that day.” We stopped at a red light, shared a moment of looking into each other’s eyes. I couldn’t help but shed one single tear as the light turned green. I know Ryan saw that tear run down my face, so I reassured him.
“Don’t worry Hun, they are happy tears. I’ve never heard anything as sweet as what you just said. I can’t believe I missed my prince charming, even though he was right in front of my eyes.” 1 Single tear, turned into 3, as I thought about all the times I passed Ryan on a way to a date.
“You’ve never called me Hun before, I like it. Do you maybe want to have a picnic instead of going to your house? You won’t have to worry about telling your parents, I’ll do it. I’ve memorized your house number.”
“I’d love to have a picnic. More than anything in the world”
For our picnic, Ryan bought us smoothies to drink, while walking along the beach. Finally we sat on the white, comfy sand, and just talked. Talked about how different this new relationship will be, if we even want it to happen, and all the times we’ve missed out. Every hour was going by quickly. Soon it was Sunset. We watched birds fly across the lake, sun gleaming off the blue water, as it slowly went down. Just as we were leaving, I stopped at the beach shoreline, turned to Ryan, and told him what was on my mind.
"I want to feel loved, and protected."
Ryan stuttered than whispered "Well, I’m loved, and I’m protected"
Confused I mumbled "Yes, but I was talking about me..."
He placed that amazing smile on, and said "Mia, don’t worry. I truly believe we are soul mates. We are almost one person, just being with each other. As long as you are with me, you don't have to worry about anything. I love you"
I blushed as he leaned into me, so close I could smell the heavenly scent of his cologne, and kissed me. We walked off towards the sunset, holding hands. The whole time those 3 words echoed through my head. "I love you"